It was one of these days when I was extremely impatient. I had the following in my mind: If I work on gathering new skills I would like to see immediate results so I do not have to wait that long. If I trusted, I would not be impatient.
However, I am eager. I am fed up of not knowing what I have just manifested. Why can't I be a magician? Why can't I simply spirit away my aches and discomfort? Why does it all lasts that long? Why do I have to sense every small detail, feel everything, work through, and so forth?
I long for knowing where to go. I feel like not wanting to be here any longer, but a new destination is not there, yet. I feel paralyzed as long as I am unaware of what to expect. I feel helpless as long as I cannot see a direction. I am groping in the mist and need to wait until the fog thins out. In the meantime all I can do is observe my impatience, investigate it, get acquainted, and reach out my hand to it. What is impatience good for? Can I have clarity, truth, and knowledge, please?
I asked my Higher Self to answer that question and I got the following answer (Explanation: When I was in this state of impatience I had a strong relation to another life and my Higher Self is referring to that): "You come from another plane of consciousness. You come from a planet where everything is energy and everything transforms immediately.Now, being on earth means to consider the factor time as well. Time is an interesting phenomenon. It assists us in handling our manifestations more carefully.
Time helps us to look at the state that is still there before something new arrives. It helps us to appreciate what we have now. Since what we are having now is something we have manifested before for different reasons.
Time assists us in recognizing what we created based on our past thinking and behavior and thus to see how we create our NOW. Time helps us to think over decisions, perhaps modify things we have not yet manifested, adapt them, and add new flows of ideas or realizations.
Use time as your friend. Look at the positive quality of time which lies between the wish and its conversion. Every planet has its own laws, its own rules. Become acquainted with them, observe them and see the differences. That is why you incarnate in different surroundings, in different dimensions, and in different universes …"
Ok, so being on earth means one has to consider the factor time. Unusual if one comes from a planet where life is pure energy and everything transforms immediately. My impatience diminishes a little as I am being given this information. One can see time as an exercise in confidence. Is that all?
Anyway, an interesting thought. We are always busy creating, creating, however, we do not know when things appear and we do not know exactly how things appear.
Some time ago I had a burning desire to meet a particular person. Mr. X, as I call him, was famous and the probability of having a personal meeting was very low. I visited a seminar for several days which was led by him. It was one of these seminars in which many people sat in the audience, so that no direct contact was possible.
On the penultimate day, nevertheless, I suddenly had an urge to drive to a petrol station at midday. I had to refuel anyway. However, I had planned it for later. When I was driving over I saw before my mental eye how I would meet Mr. X at the petrol station.
After arriving at the petrol station I refilled the tank and in the meantime I began to clean my rear window with some sponge from one of these water buckets. During the cleaning I looked up and there was this incredulous amazement linked with an incredulous giggling because there he actually was, Mr. X, accompanied by two other people.
They talked lively and while I was giggling unbelievingly I managed to say "Hello" and looked at him. We did not speak the same language. Hence, it was needless to start a conversation. Nevertheless, he stopped immediately talking to his companions. He looked at me from top to bottom and I looked back. This moment was like our souls exchanged whatever had to be exchanged then, no words necessary. It was a very intense moment which I kept in my mind.
Sometimes it is sufficient to meet a person and simply exchange what the souls intended to. Maybe the souls already planned this before the incarnation and everything that is required is a short moment of meeting. I had the feeling this was such a meeting. Where else would the urge come from to desperately see him? Where did the internal voice come from piloting me to the petrol station at exactly that time? Why had I seen the scene before my mental eye on my way to the petrol station?
So many questions, so many connections, and so much that needs to be discovered. And it remains exiting. Thus, time also means to stay open for anything that might happen, to stay open for surprises because we do not know when and how things are going to manifest.
In the same seminar there was an exercise a few days prior to that meeting. Mr. X had written a number on a white board which was turned around in a way so people could not see it. The number was to be guessed later on by someone from the audience.
The exercise was about training clairvoyance and so I decided to join in. Therefore I closed my eyes and a number was shown to me in front of my mental eye. Later on it turned out to really be one of the two numbers written on the board and again I felt this incredulity because I did not know how this was possible.
Why was I shown the correct number at that moment? And how come there are moments when I see nothing although I would desperately like to? Who decides when I am having such visions? How come it is possible with Mr. X around but not at other times? Please, can I have clarity, truth, and knowledge?
My Higher Self's answer: "You are able to determine it by yourself if you practice. Up to now you assume not being able to do it. That is a limitation. So you are only then able to do it if you do not ponder on the limitation. You still carry fear in you to see things you do not want to see, like the death of people or accidents. You have not learnt yet to put these matters in the right context, so you rather wanted to see nothing at all.
However, another part of you would like to see and thus it works every now and then, and sometimes it does not. Heal this portion in yourself which does not want to see and you will learn to handle this gift and this ability, and thus to use it in a way that is in accordance with your purpose."
After I received this information I checked on the part of myself that feels hurt. This sub-personality is trying to avoid something much worse because in my childhood I sometimes foresaw unpleasant things and I did not want to carry on seeing such things. Thus I lovingly accepted this sub-personality and reintegrated it. Now, there is the factor time again. After having reintegrated this part I need to wait and see how this will be transformed and to see any results.
However the factor time does not necessarily mean that things have to take long. Some things transform immediately and we call that a miracle or a spontaneous healing. Only this does not happen each time. Sometimes further revelations, further experiences, or further perceptions are needed. Eventually there is a reason why we did create our current circumstances even if it was before this incarnation or within different dimensions, or on different levels.
We should not forget about us being multidimensional. We are creators, the
more are aware of it, the more can we live our potential, and the faster can
we change matters. It might take time or it might not.