2014/05/24: Yesterday I read a few scripts of guided meditations by Sanaya Roman. She channels a form of energy from another dimension. This energy is called Orin. I had listened to these audio courses some years ago. Yesterday when reading the scripts I was surprised. I had forgotten about the content of the meditations which I did such a long time ago, probably because of the veil of oblivion. But when reading the script again I could then see how this really had manifested in my life during the recent years. And I am simply entranced to see how energetic work transforms reality.
These energetic meditations cause something different depending on our state of being. They always address those levels we are currently working on and every time we listen to them we do receive a lot of new insights. What manifests accordingly is not necessarily something we can already expect because quite often we do not know the unknown yet. We have to experience it first in order to see afterwards what really changed.
This is exactly what I noticed yesterday. I was reading the script dealing with letting go of our desire-body by observing it. I was thinking back to see the things that had changed since I had listened to the meditation for the first time. Not long ago I had moved flats and I reduced my belongings to a minimum of necessary things. It all happened by itself. I did not have to force myself and the circumstances made it very easy to do so. I even felt a huge relief to get rid of the past's ballast and noticed that I do not really need most of it anyway. By now I am not interested in fashion any longer. I do not care what people think one must have. Most of it does not appeal to me anymore.
The script I read last night suggested that one should imagine once again how our desire-body from the past held us in entanglements and connections. And then one should imagine how divine light flows through the desire-body to release all these connections and ties.
When I woke up this morning I had the feeling of having no more desire at all and I felt such a relief and such a peace. I then realized that all my addictions, longings and unfulfilled wishes are exactly the things that keep me in a feeling of discontent. As so often this feeling of infinite peace lasted only shortly after waking. Then scenes started to appear showing me once again where my desire and my longing keep the dependency.
Now I have begun to play with it. Every time a wish comes up I let light flow through it and try to figure out how I am caught. This has not led to the fact that no more wishes come up. On the contrary, now they show themselves because they want to be looked at. With some whishes I realize that they actually only tie me and with some wishes I allow them to come true because they are good for me and want to be fulfilled.
If now I consider what leads to be perfectly happy then it is rather not to fulfill each wish or to run after its fulfillment only because we are addicted or manipulated. It is rather to firstly analyze whether such a deep longing comes from ourselves or whether we are talked into having it e.g. by advertisement. By seeing and analyzing addiction and manipulation it is a lot easier to let go of such wishes.
What remains then is the longing that comes from deep within that represents
our divine being. All these things come true anyway because they are part
of us and do not make us addicted or dependent. Consequently perfectly happy
probably means to release all we do not need or rather to release those wishes
that keep us prisoners.