One afternoon I sat in the park and wondered what it means to go for the highest possible path. I had wished for it that day earlier in the morning without really thinking about the meaning. When I was in the park I started to think about it. Actually that day, I did not have the feeling that my experiences were reflecting the highest path at all. My experiences had nothing to do with feeling content, or deeply fulfilled, or with having a joyful life.
What do I get, instead? The world seems totally mad, idiotically and absurd. We humans destroy this planet wherever we can and trample down the real values of life. And I was wondering, where is this highest possible path that I wish for every day, where is the contentedness, where is the fulfilment? Why am I repeatedly disappointed because the world is not perfect and we seem to be miles away from escaping darkness?
Besides, I envied those successful people who are accepted, have enough money, and are not forced to work. Other people listen to them and their words carry weight. I wanted all of this, too. But ups, what kind of success did I wish for there? Recognition, acceptance, great money supply, pressing my opinion onto others, tell others what to do, living at the expense of other people. I suddenly noticed how I subconsciously wished for all the things that I actually wanted to escape from, the things that keep the system running. I had fallen for the trap again.
To achieve freedom it is about independence and what do I do? I am disappointed about not having the things that actually make me depend on them. The old programming is still working on me and if I am not aware then I fall for it again and wish for these binding things again. Wanting pseudo-success is deeply anchored in our cells because we were told it is of great value. According to the system we are successful if we use our elbows, outperform the other, possess as much material values as possible, control others, have power over others and so forth. But is all this true value?
Maybe it is preferable to be serene and balanced. What about all these people who live outside the limelight e.g. in a Shaolin cloister? Those people who support humanity by keeping the necessary energy up and running in order to allow many people to achieve mental balance. Those people who silently work in the background and keep the frequency of light up. Should people like that not be honored a lot more? People who do not need recognition but are self-sufficient? I am not saying that everybody needs to live like that, only, that there are other valuable life forms outside our instilled pseudo-success-oriented way of thinking.
I way too often keep forgetting what really matters, namely to trust life, to remember who I am, to discover my own power and to act and live from it. These are real values and this is what I consider to be real success. Balance, calmness or serenity could be indicators for this kind of success, a success that frees instead of being binding or addictive.
I guess with success it is always the question whether we use it with good or bad intention. Like a knife can be used to either cut bread or to kill. Do we want a win-win situation for everyone or do we strive after having an advantage at the detriment of others? Am I aggressive, or do I come from serenity? Do I want to destroy or create peace? Many things one could think about.
During summer 2014 there was the soccer world cup. When I cycled one day some soccer fans came along my way. They wore tricots and carried flags representing Germany because later that night our national team was about to have a game. I observed myself getting into the soccer mood as well and how I was looking forward to the game. These guys had stimulated me, but there was more to it. I began to develop a desire to win and the following thought came into my mind: 'come on guys, beat the enemy'.
It triggered aggressiveness in me. One can argue whether certain aggressiveness is needed to win in sports. I myself had been a competitive athlete for many years, thus I had anchored a will to win deep inside me. It was an experience I was meant to have. But on this day something else happened. A little later on my bicycle tour I came across a furious cyclist who yelled at me because I had not acted the way he thought was right. I was boiling with anger as I had already built up some aggression concerning the soccer match.
If this cyclist had not left so quickly I would have argued heavily with him, would have given my aggression free rein, would not have accepted his behavior. But by leaving he did not present me with such an outlet and thus the anger bubbled even more in me. I then had to transform all the fury in myself to calm down again.
After having settled down a little later I asked myself why I had drawn that situation to me and it became clear that this swearing cyclist only had reflected my own aggressiveness. To me it became clear that this bellicosity which was kindled by the soccer fans slumbered in me. I grasped that I should dissolve this in order to avoid being a match ball, to avoid being a bearer of fury and aggression, to avoid being used by others, and to avoid handing over the control over my emotions to others.
Germany won that soccer game that night and people were in a good mood. A picture from a scene in the cabin after the match was published. It was Lukas Podolski, a German player, happily together with Angela Merkel, our chancellor taken as a selfie by Lukas. Our chancellor joining the winning team and spreading the joy.
I could not help it but I immediately had in mind how we, the people, are provided with Bread and Circuses. The ruling class increases popularity in order to achieve their goals a lot easier. Even the mainstream news mentioned this the other day. They openly talked about the fact that soccer world cups or European championships are used to push through disagreeable political decisions while the mass is too busy to rebel. The mass is too drunk from the player's goal celebration. Precisely this represents bread and circuses. Hereby the little soccer excursion ends.
Success has so many facets. For me personally success might also mean to e.g. reach people in a better way with my message. Sometimes I feel like this could work by far better. Once I mentioned towards a seer that people quite often do not understand me or show no interest if it comes to energetic subjects she answered spontaneously: "As long as they do have aluminium in their brains they won't be able to do so".
Back then I was taken aback a little because at first I thought it to be a joke but she was absolutely serious about it. As long as aluminium gets into our organism through food, deodorants, chemtrails, or any other way it then settles in the brain and stops people to open up to such subjects. Why this has greater impacts on some people than on others, I have no idea. Aluminium is certainly only one of many factors why people do not feel drawn to energetic subjects or close up their minds to deeper truth. Maybe aluminium is also a reason why I repeatedly keep forgetting what I actually already know?
Anyway, it is worth checking on how to avoid bringing aluminium into the organism as far as we are able to consciously influence this and of course one should think on how to avoid contamination in general. The cleaner our body the more are we able to be consciously aware and to remember those things that help us to learn with ease and joy instead of having to suffer.
If I now look at what I have just written and what I was allowed to learn today then it starts to make sense why in a certain way I did experience the highest possible path today, in fact, do experience it every day. It is not necessarily what we expect to be the highest good. It is simply what we learn day by day over and over again. It is a matter of seeing the value of it all. The highest possible path does not mean to avoid everything that appears to be unpleasant.
Today I had asked to be shown why it is the highest path and some answers came indeed. They came when I had the feeling of not being on the highest path and when I allowed this feeling to be instead of avoiding it. I observed it from different angles and it was then that answers came.
However, I sometimes feel like having to solve far too much. Quite often I think I understood my lesson and do not need it any more but then the subject is shown to me from a totally or slightly different perspective and new challenges appear. Every now and then I find this very tiresome because it never seems to stop. It goes on and on and I never reach a state of rest. But I guess even that is just a feeling that needs to be observed to eventually dissolve. On and on and on … I had thought to have stepped out of the hamster's wheel.
But our job is not the hamster's wheel. It is only that the effects of it are strongly visible there. It is our patterns in life that keep us within. Our own patterns determine our lifestyle. We determine our lifestyle. Thus it is a matter of dissolving our patterns. And again it is about letting go, letting go, and letting go. Observing, observing, and observing. Awareness. It does not stop. From time to time I feel tired of having to work constantly on solutions and I would like to leave everything as it is.
One of these days I simply did exactly that, I just let everything be, and I surrendered, and stopped revolting. This was very restful for a short period of time. But then at night I watched TV and after switching it off there it was again, the feeling of having been manipulated and it was clear to me that there is no way of letting others treat me like this. I do not tolerate it. I cannot leave it that way. I do not allow being a match ball of others any longer.
How do I experience TV's manipulation? That depends on my basic mood. In this case it was in such a way that after switching off the TV a wave of desperation, wanting to give up, and frustration overcame me. I was in doubt and I questioned my way of living. For a short moment I told myself that I may not rebel and that I may instead behave and surrender to the values of the system: have a regular job, good income, accept things as they are, and keep my mouth shut. That is the sort of intimidation coming out of the telly.
As soon as I noticed that intimidation something in me rebelled and I was back. Determination and intentness came back. I was certain I am doing the right thing because this has to stop. This manipulation, this suppression, the hidden brainwashing must not continue endlessly.
What stands in the way of freedom is life. That was the answer I got out of my meditation as mentioned before and I had several interpretations for it. That night, animated by TV's manipulation, another one was added: It is not a matter of freeing me in this one life. It is rather a matter of freeing me from the wheel of incarnations, freeing me from being forced to incarnate over and over again, from not being able to get out.
It is not about freeing me or the planet within this life, maybe as well, probably it is all connected. But it is more about overcoming the restriction that is called life or at least to leave life in darkness behind. What is it that sets us free? The answer in my mediation was Being ONE. For me this means that my soul reconnects with All That Is completely again. This will set me free and I will not be forced to incarnate in darkness again, then I am ONE.
It became clear to me that for my exemption I need to do those things that remain AFTER this life. It is not a matter of creating something IN this life that binds me to farther lives. It is about letting go. This realization shifts my focus in such a way that in everything I do I am asking myself whether it is something I can keep when I am leaving this body for good. If not then I do not get involved. Or on the other hand I focus on lasting values. What are lasting values? Everything I learn, all my experiences, everything I solve, all that I work on energetically, all that remains.
In contrast binding things are for example such values given by the system that are addictive. Those values seem to be desirable when in truth they make us depend on them. The system, or rather the entities behind the system do not like to let us go for whatever reason. Thus it is advisable to dissolve such dependencies and escape such binding matters.
Examples of such bindings are: Eternal oaths and vows (oaths of allegiance, marriage, vows of chastity, vows of poverty etc.), or also contracts beyond one lifetime, or karmic connections etc.
In order to solve these issues energetic work is needed. Let your intuition be your guide to find suitable measures for solutions. Maybe a healer can assist you in solving such things. Or e.g. with the support of guided audio meditations we can solve a lot on our own.
Mostly not everything can be solved at once because we lived so many lifetimes having entered so many entanglements. Anyway, if you have the intention to dissolve all these bindings then your soul will lead you there if you allow your soul to do so.
Additional Note: There are some people who are able to walk the first steps of their own death and then come back again. One of them told me this is a very useful practice because she is receiving a lot of insights and she is then able to see things that are still changeable in the course of life but only become conscious if looked at from the perspective of death.
This woman told me she came into this life voluntarily, thus she was not forced to incarnate here. However, she also indicates how important it is not to get entangled too much. At the steps of death she sees a staircase that leads out of the reincarnation cycle and she has the possibility to take it. She says she needs to pay attention in order for this staircase to still be there depending on what is happening in life.
Thinking about success again considering the things just mentioned it does not seem to be desirable to achieve success as it is defined by the system. Unfortunately the veil of forgetfulness is still effective and from time to time I fall for the trap again.
However, every time I do remember I rather see challenges as a way to be provided with the possibility to also have the staircase out of the reincarnation cycle at the time of death. Whereas I consider the staircase to be more like a symbol because I personally imagine it to be more like a choice in consciousness.
But, my goal is definitely to have this way out, to be ONE with All That Is, and to be free. I mean a freedom that is not about having it in this life but about reaching an absolute freedom. This life here is a step towards it. Freedom is nothing that can be reached in human life because life itself is the illusion in which we are caught.
But life is also the place where we can escape from all restrictions in order
to find true freedom within the Oneness and to overcome the separation which
arose from the Fall of Man in paradise when we decided to get to know darkness
and therefore turned away from the divine.