Speaking of darkness, among other things darkness is the absence of love. In my opinion I had had experienced enough of that absence and wanted to open up to experience love in a far deeper way. Hence I did a past life regression to figure out how I denied myself love in other lifetimes in order to be able to see where I am not completely open within this life either.
During the regression I saw plenty of different lives and without love I was cold, strategic, militarily disciplined, or a worker in the midst of machines and a lot more. When I lived the military disciplined life I could not allow love because I wanted to win the battle at the strategic drawing board. There was only space for pure strategy and discipline. In another life I had stabbed my mother and I could only do it without feeling any love, only to mention some examples here.
Shortly after the regression I was taken a little bit given the cold that I had experienced. There I had perceived darkness once again very intensely and from a distance it was absolutely exciting as one receives valuable insights. One develops an understanding of what drives people to certain actions once love is absent. Or to put it another way, one can only do certain things if love is not carried within the heart.
During this regression I did not only see one single life but many rushed along and there was no need to dive deeply into each one. It was sufficient to see short parts to get an idea of the situation. All that was relevant to answer my question was taken in telepathically. It is not necessary to cognitively grasp everything.
At the moment of experiencing, it is just about observing the single scenes. Logical conclusions will arise with time and might present themselves as 'aha' effects later. Hence, after such a past life regression it is useful to take enough time to just be. No need to act or interpret too much because that will follow later automatically.
Regressions offer great potential for learning in a way life teaches. It is not necessarily like the way in which we are learning at school. In life there is no division in school classes. In life everyone joins in equally, those who have already learnt a lot and those who would like to learn a lot. We all get our roles and we all play the game together.
There is something suitable for everyone and each one will get exactly what is needed. Our Higher Self decides which lessons are relevant for us and arranges for the necessary stage and play in coordination with the other people's Higher Self. There are neither marks nor judgment or appraisals.
Much rather our own perceptions are decisive, how I feel and what I have recognized and how I start to see more and more correlations. Learning never stops. Sometimes I believe I have understood everything and then life comes along and teaches the same thing in a slightly different way, so more and more is added over time. A lesson never seems to be complete, new aspects can show up any time.
Now, what is it that I got from the past life regression? I was able to develop
a sense on how it is if no love is admitted. Thus, I am more sensitive to
recognize situations when I am about to close my heart and I then do have
the choice to decide whether I really want to act like it at that moment or
not. Anyway, it was soothing to see how much love I already do carry within
my heart and I am now ready to open up for even more. And it was quite a disenchantment
to experience how cold it is without love.